I cant take any more good news...
So, I was told that I need to update my blog, or atleast put a new entry up. Which, I am now doing, however, I don't believe this entry is exactly what Bethany had in mind. Perhaps, soon, I'll have the time, or the clearness of thought to be able to put a post together for the past weekend festivities. But we shall see.
Today, I got into work a bit later than I normally do, was having some landlord issues. But I walk into work today, and some one tells me, George Hoops died at work this morning. WOW. My father, up until he moved out to Akron has Sat beside George for as long as he has been with FirstEnergy/GPU. I was talking to him just yesterday before he left. It is believed that he had a massive heart attack. It's all just too much for me to handle right now. He an my father were very close, and when I talked to my father, he wasn't doing so well. He said, George has just been to the doctor a few weeks earlier, the full physical, came out clean. He leaves behind a young wife, and a 7 year old son. I can even imagine tryhing to tell your son, your dad isn't coming back. What makes it harder yet, is that they had just started to go to scouts together, and going to baseball games together, and things most father's and son's do together. Please, let your prayers be with Lisa and Preston over this Holiday season.
Death, like taxes, some say, will always come. I've never really had to deal with death before. In the mid 80's my step grandfather who I had never meet died, so, there was really no effect there. In the early 90's Derick Miller and his father(whos name i can't remember right now) were killed when a truck hit them head on. They were very active in our scouting troop, but, I wasn't really close to Derick, and for some reason wasn't really effected by the whole thing. Agian, though, Derick's father, and my father were very close. When he found out, and at the funeral, it was the first time I ever remember seeing my father cry, about anything. In the mid 90's my grandfather died, and due to that death, I was able to meet all of the Greek side of my family for the first time. They, to this day, are a large part of my life, and keep me sane. Again, I had never meet my grandfather, so there was no effect there. When I was in 10th grade, there was a brother and sister driving to school, and hit a truck head on, both died, they were the only kids of the family. I didn't know either one, but knew of them. So, once, again, I was spared having to really deal with death. In 2003, while I was an RA at U of Pitt, one of my residents slipped under a Transit Bus and was killed, he was a very shy person, and I didn't know him well, but well enough to say hi, and have small talk with him and his roommates. That was the first time I really had to deal with death, but, there the entire floor, the entire building was there to share that grief. It was nice for everyone, to have everyone else around, right at that time, and just to talk about it, and to count your blessings. I was very concerned about the parents commings and moving out all of his stuff. I think, having to deal with that, was harder than having to deal with his death.
So, besides that inicdent at Pitt, this is the first time, I have had to deal with Death face to face. I think what makes it harder, is that I saw George at work everyday, I talked to him, everyday, I knew his wife, I knew his son, he was extremly good friends with my father. And now on top of all this, a very nice couple that works in the same area that I do, John and Gale, I also came to find out, that the day before, John's brother passed away. Also, Gale's mother hasn't been doing well, and for the past 2 months, she and her brother have been taking care of her, she isn't excpeted to make it much longer. I just can't deal w/ all this death any more. John and Gale are such nice people, they have really helped me in all my times of need, and I wish there was something i could do for the both of them. And Lisa and Preston... I mean... what do you say... what can you do? I mean... in an instant, all your life dreams and ambitions change when a spouse dies... I just can't even begin to imagine.
And on if all this weren't enough, my aunt was found to have Breast Cancer.
All of this, also, now comes, at just a very odd time in the year. As, if it weren't going to be an odd enough holiday season already, it has been snowing all week in Ohio. And, now, my Mom is telling me that they are expecting up to a foot and half of snow tomorrow, and that she is concerned that I shouldn't try to drive in the shitty weather. I also want to pay my respects to George, which... i would assume be Sunday, I can't imagine Lisa would want to have it on xmas, and i'm not sure, everything would be ready by friday. Reguardless, the logistics of everything in this next few days, is going to cause me to have a nervous break down. With everything else that has gone on this year, I NEED to be w/ my mom and sister over xmas. I can't allow this to be the first xmas I dont' spend w/ some sort of family. Not only would that reck me, but I know it would wreck my mom.
Speaking of which.... I love my Mom... can i just say that? Out of everything that has happened this year, when i called her to tell her George had passway, all she could do was think about my Father, and how hurt he must be... she is a Saint.
A week or so ago, my mom asked me what I wanted for xmas. I really dont' want or need anything. I seriously, just wanted to spend time w/ her and my sister, and maybe her side of the family. In the true spirt of xmas, I just wanted to be with family. And all of you that are able to do so, you are bleased, don't take it for granted.
Some might say, that, there are plenty of other people that are having much worse times than myself. And, i'm sure that is true, and I do my best, to give what strength i have left, to pray for those who are also in less than happy situtations. May everyone who needs it, get the strength they need, be it physicaly or spiritualy.
Today, I got into work a bit later than I normally do, was having some landlord issues. But I walk into work today, and some one tells me, George Hoops died at work this morning. WOW. My father, up until he moved out to Akron has Sat beside George for as long as he has been with FirstEnergy/GPU. I was talking to him just yesterday before he left. It is believed that he had a massive heart attack. It's all just too much for me to handle right now. He an my father were very close, and when I talked to my father, he wasn't doing so well. He said, George has just been to the doctor a few weeks earlier, the full physical, came out clean. He leaves behind a young wife, and a 7 year old son. I can even imagine tryhing to tell your son, your dad isn't coming back. What makes it harder yet, is that they had just started to go to scouts together, and going to baseball games together, and things most father's and son's do together. Please, let your prayers be with Lisa and Preston over this Holiday season.
Death, like taxes, some say, will always come. I've never really had to deal with death before. In the mid 80's my step grandfather who I had never meet died, so, there was really no effect there. In the early 90's Derick Miller and his father(whos name i can't remember right now) were killed when a truck hit them head on. They were very active in our scouting troop, but, I wasn't really close to Derick, and for some reason wasn't really effected by the whole thing. Agian, though, Derick's father, and my father were very close. When he found out, and at the funeral, it was the first time I ever remember seeing my father cry, about anything. In the mid 90's my grandfather died, and due to that death, I was able to meet all of the Greek side of my family for the first time. They, to this day, are a large part of my life, and keep me sane. Again, I had never meet my grandfather, so there was no effect there. When I was in 10th grade, there was a brother and sister driving to school, and hit a truck head on, both died, they were the only kids of the family. I didn't know either one, but knew of them. So, once, again, I was spared having to really deal with death. In 2003, while I was an RA at U of Pitt, one of my residents slipped under a Transit Bus and was killed, he was a very shy person, and I didn't know him well, but well enough to say hi, and have small talk with him and his roommates. That was the first time I really had to deal with death, but, there the entire floor, the entire building was there to share that grief. It was nice for everyone, to have everyone else around, right at that time, and just to talk about it, and to count your blessings. I was very concerned about the parents commings and moving out all of his stuff. I think, having to deal with that, was harder than having to deal with his death.
So, besides that inicdent at Pitt, this is the first time, I have had to deal with Death face to face. I think what makes it harder, is that I saw George at work everyday, I talked to him, everyday, I knew his wife, I knew his son, he was extremly good friends with my father. And now on top of all this, a very nice couple that works in the same area that I do, John and Gale, I also came to find out, that the day before, John's brother passed away. Also, Gale's mother hasn't been doing well, and for the past 2 months, she and her brother have been taking care of her, she isn't excpeted to make it much longer. I just can't deal w/ all this death any more. John and Gale are such nice people, they have really helped me in all my times of need, and I wish there was something i could do for the both of them. And Lisa and Preston... I mean... what do you say... what can you do? I mean... in an instant, all your life dreams and ambitions change when a spouse dies... I just can't even begin to imagine.
And on if all this weren't enough, my aunt was found to have Breast Cancer.
All of this, also, now comes, at just a very odd time in the year. As, if it weren't going to be an odd enough holiday season already, it has been snowing all week in Ohio. And, now, my Mom is telling me that they are expecting up to a foot and half of snow tomorrow, and that she is concerned that I shouldn't try to drive in the shitty weather. I also want to pay my respects to George, which... i would assume be Sunday, I can't imagine Lisa would want to have it on xmas, and i'm not sure, everything would be ready by friday. Reguardless, the logistics of everything in this next few days, is going to cause me to have a nervous break down. With everything else that has gone on this year, I NEED to be w/ my mom and sister over xmas. I can't allow this to be the first xmas I dont' spend w/ some sort of family. Not only would that reck me, but I know it would wreck my mom.
Speaking of which.... I love my Mom... can i just say that? Out of everything that has happened this year, when i called her to tell her George had passway, all she could do was think about my Father, and how hurt he must be... she is a Saint.
A week or so ago, my mom asked me what I wanted for xmas. I really dont' want or need anything. I seriously, just wanted to spend time w/ her and my sister, and maybe her side of the family. In the true spirt of xmas, I just wanted to be with family. And all of you that are able to do so, you are bleased, don't take it for granted.
Some might say, that, there are plenty of other people that are having much worse times than myself. And, i'm sure that is true, and I do my best, to give what strength i have left, to pray for those who are also in less than happy situtations. May everyone who needs it, get the strength they need, be it physicaly or spiritualy.
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